The Commotion

Graduation is the end of a period in my life. It was enjoyable and there were parts that I really liked about high school. Being given the chance to perform in front of 1500+ people was an amazing experience and was a definite high of my senior year. It's great to be recognized for something, instead of always being in the background.

People have had a tendency of being false to me and betrayed / hurt me. I'm used to it. They've tried to bring me down but that doesn't work anymore. I'm my own person and. . .don't need them. I guess thats the best way to say it.

I thank my parents and teachers for helping me through high school. Without them, I could not do it. And thats an accomplishment in its self. So thank you and now I have to figure out what I do from now. I'm at a crossroads.

Every Moment Counts

Life has a way of going by when you don't want it, too. It doesn't know when to slow down. It just keeps continuing. I've decided with the end of high school, I have to appreciate the time I do have. Instead of wasting it wondering why I don't have a boyfriend or such. Because in perspective, stuff like that is not the most important.

I bonded with my two cousins talking about life and experiences. And other stuff. I really miss bonding over girl talk like that. I don't have to see my cousins for a long time but feel the same connection, I always do. Like we can talk about anything.

Tomorrow and destiny work together to steer you in a new direction. Whatever road that may be, you should follow it.

Cactus Huggers

Residents of Arizona have been labeled as "cactus-huggers" instead of the normal term "tree-huggers" by my cousin, Hope. I think that's funny how they label us. Everyone is always put in a category for something. Why not what you hug?

I got my hair rehighlighted ish today to hide my brown roots. They keep wanting to grow in. Grrr! I'm planning to stay with the blonde look until I start college. Maybe, I'm not totally sure yet.

Hanging with family I haven't seen in over 8 years results in. . .
- Mexican food restaurant eating
- Walking in tutus around my neighborhood (Go Hope! lols)
- Watching Sex-Education YouTube Videos
- Playing Fill or Bust and giving up in the middle
- Walking the Princess Fuu Fuu dog because it needs to go potty
- Just laughing

Randomness happens with four girls together. Watch out Forever 21! The Girls are back in town. That was a lame joke.

All in all, a memorable day. talking in bad French accents about throwing croissants and crepes at each other. I wish I could learn to enjoy myself a lot more like that.

Just let go and let life happen. A new motto, I think? lols

Time Frozen

It's weird not being apart of high school anymore. I've been in it so long. It feels wrong.

I have family fly into town from all across the country. It made yesterday seem like Saturday. Crazy stuff. Being with family time always seems to fly.

The Last Goodbye

High school is a lot of memories shared with a group of friends. It's classes you go to, even though you don't totally want to be there. Embarassing moments that make good stories to tell your friends and family. Hard times when you think the whole world is against you and there is no where to turn. Insecurities about yourself and what others think of you. It's undefined but experienced. You take risks and explore new things about yourself. Memories can be lived and never forgotten.

I started high school as a quiet girl unsure of herself in the world around her. I did make friends but I always felt the need to cling to others, to find a - safety net in the world. My confidence in myself was only defined by their opinion of me. And that wasn't how it stayed.

I saw the beauty within my own self and broke down barriers socially. I interacted more with others and with that I was able to make amazing friends. I'm grateful for that and the way I was able to grow.

I want to thank my friends even though they probably will never read this. They mean a lot to me and helped me survive high school. I love that I have been able to create a whole new self this year. I have been redefined and people have to get used to a new me.

High school goes by fast but its a rewarding experience. And I don't regret anything.

"And the dreams that have faded. . .never forget them." - Yuna, Final Fantasy X

Lazy Days

The days are so hot and the school year begins to draw to a close. Ever so slowly. . .

I'm confused about how I feel about graduation and what it really means to me. Should I be happy or sad? I just don't know anymore. I'm so confused inside about everything.

I want to relive my accomplishments in GREASE, but I know that I can't. It was a great time, but in reality no one can live in the past. They have to face what comes to them in the future. even though it can be tough.

I saw Star Trek with my friend Destiny. I really liked the movie. I expected it to be weird, but it was really cool. Whoever said it was a dorkie convention thing? lols

Life steers you in a new direction like a stream, so its your responsibility to follow it. lols Reminds me of a line from Memoirs of a Geisha.

3, 2, 1 - BREAKIN OUT!

Rejection can be hard to deal with in the events of normal reality. It seems like your on a high for so long and then you suddenly crash with one rejection. I am going to keep going, even if it means I am not going to be doing something I wanted to have.

I'm ending high school this week and graduate next Friday. I have had a lot of memories there for the last four years. It's been quite a journey. My highlight is definantly being Sandy in GREASE. Who doesn't want to dress up and look cool sometimes? Me, duh!

I also saw The Strangers at my friends birthday party sleepover. That means no talking to strangers for a while. Or opening the door when people knock. They might be looking for Tamara.

I'm tired and starting to ramble which is a bad sign so I will go to sleep. Good night and may tomorrow bring a new chance at everything. Happy blogging with this new blog!

RANDOM PURPLY SHOUTOUT: Bananas ony talk when an eskimo gives them a carrot.

It's a banana shoe. Close enough. Picture wise.