Grown Up Steps

We step out into the world with baby steps. Our parents like to guide us along the way. But there has to be a point where we go off by ourself. Explore the world and make our own way, on our own.

I've officially gotten my license and glasses. Those are both a first. I wasn't really excited to get my license, have no idea why.

I had a fun day with Victoria on Monday and totally kept forgetting to write about it. We had a Sailor Moon moviethon with 2 movies. lols Promise of the Rose and Hearts in Ice. Or something like that. We're so cool! :)

Chilling at the food court. Bought Starbucks and pretzels. Yum!

I'm so cool rockin the side pony tail. This is the new way to smile. Watch us start a trend! 

Solo shot. The headbands were so cute. Had to try it on.

The headbands inspire weird pictures. Ha!

I don't like my smile in that one but whatever. I found out I owe a lot of money to uni for not even living there. What is the world coming too? Thats even without tuition. lols

The Passing

I've never experienced the feelings of a loss before. Besides my pet dog. I recently found about the death of a classmate from my old high school. She had a drug overdose and its not known if it was accidental or intentional. She was in my choir class in school and I didn't really talk to her that much.

She also was in my dance class at my old dance studio. But, I never became really good friends with her. This passing makes me want to become a better person and reach out to people who don't have a lot of friends. It's maybe because they are just misunderstood. I think all she wanted was to make friends and be accepted. Something as simple as that.

My prayers go to her family and I hope they are able to deal with this time of loss.

I also passed the road test for my driver's license. It was hard to concentrate with the death on my mind still. I didn't know something like this would affect me that way.

About the World Around You

My parents sucked me into watching a marathon of Anne of Green Gables. lols That series is like eight hours long. It keeps going, and going and going. But that character is really full of life and has notions of things that weren't even thought of in her day. A women writer? That was completely unheard of at the time. For the most part.

Anne's story is fiction, but its still powerful. Its based on everyday life rather than fantasy. Maybe all those years I spent writing fiction stories was misgiven.

There is something special in the world around you. It's just waiting for you to put it on paper or desktop, I suppose.

Auditioned for Oliver yesterday. I had to do a range check for my low notes. I can hit a g below middle c. Lower than I used to when I was in choir.

Back to brown hair again. It feels more like myself than my borrowed time as a blonde. That didn't seem completely like me but another person.

Finished another book. Read Harry Potter 7 in 2 days. New record!

Falling in love with the song that translates into Hopeless Dream Catcher. It pertains to where I am right now in life. Stuck in dream. Aren't I always?

My notions of life are always left understood by most people and I always act on my feelings to late. When the moment is completely over, do I understand the signs. I guess that can be the one thing I regret. 

A Difference

A single stone by itself is insignfigant. But when, it is added to the power of others it can create an avalanche. A unstoppable force that can take on anything.

Even though a person is alone in their beliefs, their voice can make the difference that can cause an avalanche. Make a change by igniting it.

Ideals are tedious and not easily accepted. But it always starts with one. One voice. One dream. One message. A complete acceptance by others allows for change to start and grow. Which can eventually represent the voice of millions.

I don't know what inspired me to be all poetic today. It just feels right and what I should say now, rather than talk about how I ate tacos and watched movies. This message seems more signifigant.

Relax!

I didn't do much today. I watched Harry Potter 2 and 3. Went on the computer. Swam in a friend's pool and had dinner at their house.



Now my eyes sting. Wish I could see some high school friends more frequently. But that's life. You have to keep moving forward.

Shopping Etc.~

I bought some cute clothes at Forever 21. 2 skirts, 1 top, and gray leggings. lols All for just over $60. That's pretty good except I blew all the money I had saved.

Seeing the Wonder Girls with Josey next month. I'm excited. It's the first concert I've been to like in 8 years. The last one was LeAnn Rimes. Really old school, yo!

Nervous for college and my audition for Oliver. Life throws some crazy stuff at times. lols

The False Impressionist

Life is full of false impressions. Its hard to seperate reality from impressions at times. Things may be too good to fully categorize as reality for the most part. People are easily fooled. I wish hearts weren't like that. Too vulnerable. And easily broken.

Until I can fully trust myself can I let another person completely in. That's why I promise to stay aay from relationships until I am ready and not any sooner. I won't let myself get hurt anymore. I can do that at least.

Played three hours of volleyball. And had Destiny over. I'm wiped.

Bittersweet Victory

Slept in til 9 or so. Cleaned the house: vaccuming and other "fun" chores. Took a shower, threw on some makeup and got ready to play volleyball. For almost 8 hours.

I watched the normal fireworks everyone sees. Didn't see the finale. We had to leave early. It was a barbecue at my friend Amanda's house. My hands are so dry from the Salt Water in the pool. lols Apply lotion pronto.

I won 11 games of volleyball and got better at hitting the ball to the other team. Even though it went on the roof a few times. Oh, well. Who counts those anyways? lols

Inner Strength

Inner strength comes from within when you know you must accomplish a monumentous task. You feel complete after getting the courage to end it. But, its the journey you take that defines you ultimately as a person.

Letting go can be the hardest part but the start of a new day.